Teacher: I'm
holding a cracker. It's a real cracker. It's an ordinary cracker. It
seems to exist “out there,” independent of our Mind. If it really
exists like that, then when we analyze and search for what the
cracker is, the “cracker-ness,” we should be able to find it.
I'll break off a piece. Here, is this piece I'm now holding a
cracker?
Student: Yes.
Teacher: I'll
break off another piece and hold it up. Is this piece I'm now holding
a cracker?
Student: Yes.
Teacher: I'll
crush everything in my hand. What is this I'm now holding in the palm
of my hand?
Student:
Crumbs. A mess.
Teacher: So
there's no cracker now? What happened to the cracker I was holding.
If this was a real cracker with some cracker-ness quality to it,
where is that cracker now? What we have now are the same atoms—but
we call it crumbs and not a cracker.
If there were
some inherent cracker-ness we should be able to find it either in the
pile of crumbs or parts that I hold in my hand or we should find it
separate from its parts, but it isn't anywhere.
Student: The
cracker is a collection of atoms. It is all the parts together.
Teacher: But a
collection is just a group of parts. If none of the parts by
themselves are a cracker, then how can many parts together be an
independent cracker with some cracker-ness quality? If you put many
non-butterflies, such as grasshoppers together, does that make a
butterfly? How can a group of non-crackers or crumbs make a real
cracker?
Student: So
there is no cracker at all? What am I eating?
Teacher: What
we are searching for is something that is a cracker independent of
its parts. That real independent cracker can't be found because it
doesn't exist. But a dependently-existent cracker is there. What you
are eating is still a cracker.
The cracker
exists as a group of atoms put together in a certain pattern. Our
Mind looks at it and conceives it to be a thing and calls that thing
a cracker—it becomes a cracker because all of us together have
conceived it in a similar way and agreed, by the force of social
convention, to call it a cracker. That cracker exists dependent on
its causes and conditions—the flour, the water, the baker, and so
on. It depends on our minds conceiving it to be a thing and labeling
it “cracker.” Apart from this dependently-existent cracker, there
is no other inherently- and independently-existent cracker with some
cracker-ness quality to it. It exists, but not in the same way it
appears to exist. It appears to be independent when it isn't.
The same is
true for our “self” or “I.” Remember a time when you were
very angry. How did “I” appear then? It seems very solid—as if
there is a real me that someone is insulting. That “I” feels
real, as if it were independent, yet still somewhere inside our body
and Mind. We get angry in order to defend that “I” that seems so
real. If that solid, independent “I” exists as it appears to us,
we should be able to find it, ether among our body and our Mind or
separate from them. There is no place such an “I” could be. Let's
see. Are you your body?
Student: Yes.
Teacher: Which
part of your body are you? Are you your arm? Are you your back? Are
you your little toe? Are you your brains? It's clear we aren't any of
the parts of our body. Let's try again. Are you your Mind?
Student: I must
be.
Teacher: Which
Mind are you? Are you your visual consciousness? Are you your
auditory consciousness? Are you your mental consciousness? Are you
one particular characteristic? If you were your angry self, would you
always be angry?
Student: “I”
am what goes from one life to the next.
Teacher: But
what goes from one life to the next is constantly changing. Can you
point to one moment of your Mind that has always been and always will
be you? Are you yesterday's Mind? Are you today's Mind? Are you
tomorrow's Mind?
Student: I'm
all of them together.
Teacher: But
that's a collection of parts, none of which are “I.” To say the
parts are “I” is akin to saying a group of grasshoppers are a
butterfly.
Maybe you're
completely separate from your body and Mind. That is, can you take
away your body and your Mind and you (“I”) still remain
independently? If the “I” is separate from the body and the Mind,
my body and my Mind could be here and I could be across the room. Is
that possible?
The “I” or
self doesn't exist independently of the body and the Mind. It is not
the body and it is not the Mind. Neither is it the body and the Mind
together. In other words, the solid “I” that we felt when we were
angry doesn't exist at all. This is what is meant by selflessness:
there is no ultimately existent or independent self. That doesn't
mean the “I” doesn't exist at all. What we're negating is its
independent or inherent existence. There is a conventionally existent
“I” that is angry and that “I” does not exist independently.
The “I”
depends on causes and conditions: the coming together of the sperm
and the egg of our parents and our sensual experience. The “I”
also depends on the parts which compose it: our body and our Mind.
The “I” also depends on concept and label. That is, on the basis
of our body and Mind being together, we conceive of a person and
label it “I.” We exist by being merely labeled on a suitable
basis—our body and our Mind.
Student: How
does knowing and understanding Dependent Origination help us?
Teacher: When
we understand Dependent Origination we see there is no solid person
who is angry. There is no real person whose reputation needs to be
defended. There is no independently beautiful person or object that
we have to possess. By realizing Dependent Origination our
attachment, anger, jealousy, pride, and other disturbing attitudes
vanish, because there is no independently-existing person that has to
be protected, and there is no independently-existing object to be
grasped.
That doesn't
mean we become inert and unambitious like vegetables, thinking,
“There's no me, no goal. So why should I do anything?” Realizing
selflessness (emptiness) gives tremendous space for action. Rather
than our energy being consumed by attachment, anger, and ignorance,
we are free to use our Wisdom and Compassion in countless ways to
benefit all species, all things.
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